It’s the last day of the month. It’s now going on 3 months that I was served with a Citation- Petition for Divorce by Jonathan, after he wiped out our bank accounts, emptied our house from any valuables, electronics, power tools, TVs, in efforts to prevent me from getting a loan or something else in hope of obtaining legal representation for my Divorce and seeking a reinstatement of the Protective Order issued on September 21 2018 when he Broke my wrist and foot after choking me until he pushed me to seek help and support for my health and safety after scaring me to get an immediate order of protection from the State of Louisiana. Sadly this was 2 days after our 9th anniversary (9-19-09).
Jonathan has intentionally forced me to go without life saving medications for heart disease, neurological disorders, high blood pressure, depression, anxiety and PTSD, by refusing to provide me with basic medication that I have taken for the entire marriage. He also has refused the responsibility of providing very basic needs to his disabled and very distressed wife who is unable to obtain gainful employment opportunities the way that he can, we are talking no food, no money, no medication, with hopes of getting a default judgment granted against me after knowing the day he served me my answer was already filed (As the victim of Domestic Violence filing Pro Se article 103).
He has taunted me with the whole thing that has me so upset “You could have had support if you would have filed in court before the 28th” knowing that I had already sent them copies and that I was fighting with my health and diagnosis of a very serious medical condition which is causing swelling and expansion of the sella and major CSF density of my brain which is indicative of cancer, and also had been diagnosed with yet another mini stroke or TIA that same day after a very upsetting conversation with my husband on Christmas day 2018, which is why I am fighting for a bit more than just a divorce and whats owed to me, I don’t know whats to come of all of this, I do know that I need proper treatment in order to stand a chance at surviving this debilitating illness and I don’t want to be forced to go out this way because of my husband wanting to refuse me to get the treatment that I need to profit off of my demise if that is what will be, he doesn’t think that I am worth the money for medical attention and says its not his problem anymore… Throw on top that I don’t have any money for my regular medications and emotional torture that Im trying to keep at bay, and you tell me you wouldn’t be upset, scared or nervous about how much you were going through and the courts to allow such a selfish and vindictive, inhumane act of “Just because I can” by the same man who has been a part in the abuse for the last few years.
HOW the hell does the entire suit jacket for my divorce proceeding arising out of the court house, and ONLY one person has been in a position to gain access to those official court documents. Jonathans Attorney Scott Hawkins. I mean aside from the Judge who “had it in his office since the day I filed it” and “The clerk who had it downstairs in processing while they worked on getting the appeal” and the court date for an immediate divorce pursuant to filing article 103 Domestic Violence and Abuse Act of Louisiana ensures the victim to have a right to be free from the abuser and to be divorced from the abuser immediately after the first filing is on record with the courts and without needing an answer to the petition for the courts not to have a trial or not to put the victim on public display.
This Act also ensures that the abuser has to provide for the victim to have legal representation, financial assistance in form of an injunction against the abuser to ensure that there is transitional support and finances for all aspects of the victims process of the divorce, including a mandatory protective order to be issued, and other opportunities to ensure the abuser does not retaliate against the victim for escaping the abuse and ending the marriage, including mandatory spousal support, and assistance from the DA’s office to prosecute the abuser. What I got was exactly everything opposite of what the law states that shall be provided to me by the courts and Jonathan and his legal counsel.
I have a problem with this because of the simple fact that once again I am being denied the right to be free from abuse and neglect on the court and my husband. For an attorney to remove the answer to his frivolous and perjured prejudiced Petition for Divorce in attempts to obtain a default judgment of divorce without contested matters and without him having to pay spousal support or being held responsible for an upkeep of my lifestyle I have been accustomed to and to defraud the courts of official notarized stamped documents that contain felony charges of Physical, sexual, economic, reproductive, digital, emotional abuse shows a lack of morale and violation of ethics and federal law.
For over 2 months I have begged for help with access to finances and assistance in having the basic needs to survive while the courts have refused to sanction and/reprimand the persons responsible for removing my paperwork out of the jacket and to have the entire jacket missing for an extended time is preposterous , not to mention incredibly malicious and reckless to be allowed to enter a default against someone who had filed the paperwork and the fact that no one could locate the file is beyond outrageous to even be discussing how this pleading was entered. No court date has been given. I keep getting the run around and told that its a process. Im sure it is when the courts don’t give a fuck about what is really happening putting them in a position to be held responsible for a federal lawsuit for engaging in criminal actions and tampering with official court documents and stalling the proceedings in efforts to abuse me further and causing exacerbated medical issues to arise from the immense stress this is putting on me.
On February 13th I was served while I was going to leave my driveway to file my divorce against him, and had just spoke with him and told him that I was going file the paperwork, and as usual he had to show me that he was in charge and I wasn’t doing anything for me to get a chance to do it. It was based on lies that we had separated July 12 2018, and in fact the protective order was in September and then we were attempting to make things work (So I thought anyway) up until the beginning of December when we purchased appliances and furniture together from Conns in Lafayette La.
So I don’t understand where he gets this July from because I wouldn’t have put a protective order if he wasn’t living with me and committed those acts against me, and I was forced to drop the order by him threatening me to cut me off financially and to make things worse for me by throwing me out into the streets with no where to go. The law states that we must live separate and apart for 6 months prior to filing for divorce (in his case without being a DV survivor) filing non contested.
Jonathan has changed the password for the community property in our storage units also holding my family heirlooms and not allowing me access to any of my personal belongings as well as our community property in those units. My name has been removed off those accounts and locks changed. Bank accounts have been closed without my approval or signature. He has intentionally defaulted on ALL of our bills including the mortgage company starting the foreclosure process, and the bank starting the repossession process on my Tahoe, as well as all of the bills being kept from me to maintain control over me and to continue being hateful and abusive because he wants to make a point that I didn’t do my job, I wasn’t good enough, and he says that I was a stupid fucking bitch and a dumbass to get the order put on him when I felt my life was in danger due to his angry outburst of violent behavior.
I was told that he wanted to be free and have something better. I was told that he wasn’t happy and wanted to make it work with someone else after all of this time and after begging me to make our marriage work only to inflict torture and terrorize me in my own home once he isolated me from everything and everyone , I was forced to participate in situations and activities that I should not have had to but it is what it is. I was put to the point of being threatened the night he broke my wrist and ankle that I would be committed right after Vermilion parish refused to enforce the protective and court order signed by Judge Hulin. In fact I was told not to call the Sheriffs Department back when I called to ask why they left his moms next door and when would they make him abide by the order to surrender the GMC for me to get medical attention for my injuries. He had intentionally put the truck on 4 flat tires to disobey the order and make a point that I was not getting his truck no matter what the court said. He had also made threats while the order was in place.
He was somehow put on probation for violating the court order TWICE and yet Judge Fitzgerald who was involved with my first husband and this other issue of my civil rights being denied and also retained by Rodney Thomson, decided to deny my petition for protection from abuse and didn’t think my life was worth protecting with insurmountable evidence as well as more abuse that was taking place since the order was forced to be dropped. Conflict of interest once again. Denying me the right to be free from abuse and the same protection as others. I had to file an appeal for the order, and ONLY Friday which is 4 months later was I granted an appeal but with the SAME judges hearing officer who handled the shit in the past decade and was part of the corruption is ASSIGNED to handle this appeal, Conflict of interest and judicial misconduct to be able to keep my case in the certain groups of officers of the court and to allow the continuation of neglect and malpractice and the denial of due process and the abuse of power that they think the immunity laws protect them from being held accountable, is absurdly the reality of my life right now.
I feel like I am fighting once again all alone against the entire world and no one gives a shit about my side and my fight. I cant find an attorney who wants to help me and work with me or represent me, I cant get the courts to budge no matter what I file within good faith and proper forms.
I filed again on March 13 2019 at 10:52am for a First Supplemental And Amended Answer To Petition For Divorce And Re-Conventional Demand For Divorce, Temporary Restraining Order, Injunction, And Other Incidental Matters, in hopes of striking out the original language and using proper form, correct legal jargon, and citing civil codes and statutes in my paperwork would present the court with the idea that I was capable of representing myself in a very serious matter that would allow me to be taken seriously and to obtain the benefit of doubt to obtain a Motion for Leave of Court on his behalf and to get some kind of injunction to prevent further injury and damages as well as to provide me with a reasonable court date if nothing at all spousal support until the actual hearing.
Once again, it was not entered in court minutes for some very concerning reason , with legitimate safety and health issues brought to light and still denied help from the courts who are helping the abuser to continue his abuse and putting themselves in a very compromising situation that can face judiciary committee sanctions and actions against the misconduct and negligence going on, and at the very least being the defendants in a federal district court of claims lawsuit for damages and injury by the state neglecting and depriving me of my rights and discriminating against me because of the political power and favors being done by his family and his own words that his sister Jennifer Breaux Meaux who works for 911 dispatching and Sheriffs department has been helping him who he had claimed set him up previously and is now living with to have imbalance and abuse of power in positions of authority to sway actions of the court, makes me feel so defeated.
BBelieve me, when I say that I am trying my best, to remain positive through what feels like something meant to destroy this new found self that actually loves who I am and where I am in my life, regardless of how difficult this part of the journey may be, its part of what I know shapes me to endure and preservere thtough, what I have worked so hard to build back up to and away from the past, which is a very proud point in my life, where I am so proud of where I am at this pivotal moment, even through the fight, and where I have been, how far I have come, and no matter what I am facing, I have such a positive outlook rather than uncertain of myself and negative thoughts about things, I just wish I could have my break and some time to actually stop and breathe and take in everything so that it doesn’t slam me later on when I least expect it, that I had been through divorce and many obstacles.
I know its not truly sinking in just yet, I mean unless I really am stronger than what I thought, because there is really no regrets, no wishing things were different, no wanting it to work, and those moments when I wanted to work my marriage out, yeah I was a dumbass for waiting this long and tolerating this much shit from my “husband” (if you want to call him that.) I actually think its probably one of the most important parts of my life and one of the best things to have to happen for me to get a different perspective on life and how I see myself so differently now and finding myself and knowing what I want to accomplish in my life.
Sure it does suck that this has to be so ugly messy and childish but I think we all appreciate the blessings and lessons along the journey, because once we reach the destination the journey is over . I think that’s what keeps me focused on looking at the other side of these extremely difficult times currently going on, to know that eventually they will be just a memory, and that it will be an experience for me to look back on in my future for lessons unknown now to help me the next time I am faced with a similar challenge.